Christmas and I have a traumatic history that led me to more ‘bah humbug’ than holiday cheer for much of my life, but this year feels different. I am surrounded by more love than I could have imagined possible, I have everything I need and I work in a field that enables me to help others get what they need. I am happy and full of gratitude for the life I get to live.
I’ve felt a heavy burden this year, managing my own health and well being as I navigated the loss of 47 souls who were important to me in the past 12 months. When I sat with my sadness a few days ago and gave it space to talk to me, I left that moment a changed man. Rather than allow the heaviness of that grief and loss to further disconnect me, I choose to run headlong into the joy that surrounds me.
I will celebrate the holiday for my loved ones. I will celebrate for the 47 who are no longer with us. I will celebrate for those who tried to belittle and silence me.
The thought of wishing for abundance feels wrong to me when so many have so little. Whatever you celebrate (or don’t), my wish for you on this holiday is that you have what you need. If what you need is family, you are part of my family now.
Never forget that I love you, and that excludes no one.